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Monday, August 17th, 2009
11:00 am - Sick In The Summer-A Sinusitis Nightmare Of Nostril Proportions

I hate being sick.  I hate the being trapped in a limp, exhausted body when my brain wants to do things my body can’t, I hate the healing process, going from feverish to clammy, stuck in a Nyquil induced hallucinogenic surrealistic world of sleep, attempting to eat, the occasional trek to the bathroom that not only feels like 5x the distance, but the mirror is mocking at the disheveled person looking back at you.

Then the fever goes away, and your headache from the pounding sinuses has indeed gone away, replaced with an apathetic nose that seems incapable of smell-think of it like swimming in chlorinated water, and snorting in some of it up your nose by accident.  Except that feeling goes away in a few minutes, with Sinusitis it lasts for days.  Food, devoid of smell, seems unappetizing.  Of course you need to eat to get better so that age old catch 22 leaves one feeling rather pissed.  One wants to eat, just the work involved in getting something together and eating it just doesn’t seem worth the effort.

You shiver in sunlight, even though you should feel warm, it’s like you’re cold to the core.  Everyone comments you better not get them sick-they say it friendly enough, but you know they want to run as far away from you as possible.  One co-worker actually told me to go home rather than infect everybody.  In a perfect world, I suppose this may work, but with a limit of time one can be away from an office, it doesn’t translate very well into reality.

There is always the fun treat that no matter how sick you are, there are others who are thoroughly convinced they are far worse off than you-this has occurred in phone calls, I tell the person how I am feeling and instead of hearing a “feel better” they somehow feel the need to go on about how sick THEY are, never mind the fact they were happily bouncing about their home earlier, or writing on Facebook how great they feel-now their voice is weak and tired, they need rest more than you and how selfish you must be sharing your poor health in such a callous fashion with the person 20x sicker than you (who will not see a doctor and seems fine anywhere from 15 minutes post-phone call to the next day).

So me and my senseless nose trudge to work, happy to be busy instead of in a cold coma on the couch.  At least I am functioning unit of the working grind and not home on my lazy ass, which is obviously my reason for being sick in the first place, depending on which family member or friend you ask.

We stay, all day-plugging along, making ourselves useful, I sneeze multiple times, I get looks but I go on.  I finish a bulk of work and enjoy the productivity of it.  The day won’t last forever and I can be home, in bed, sooner than I think and take the next few nights to get the final dregs of this thing out of my system. In my damp rag mode, I function surprisingly well, now if only I could smell stuff again!

current mood: listless

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Thursday, January 22nd, 2009
9:05 pm - Happy Birthday Eric
He would have been 39.  We got a cake since Gabby insisted.  She reworked the standard song so instead of ending it "Happy Birthday to you" it was sung "Happy Birthday we really miss you".  She was 3 when he died.

I went to the cemetery over lunch and brought some roses.  The sad thing about cemeteries in the winter is you know how little people are being visited from the lack of foot prints in the snow.  The wreath my nephew put on Eric's stone in December was still there-but looked pretty so I kept it and put the roses down, stayed a few minutes and went back to work.  I have had this sadness in me all week and it still is there.

Almost 4 years and it still hurts like it was yesterday.

current mood: thoughtful

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Saturday, January 17th, 2009
4:06 pm - Writer's Block: Shops Gone By
Woolworths shut its doors in the U.K. last week, sending many into a frenzy of nostalgia and bargain shopping. What now-closed store or chain do you wish was still open?

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Monday, January 5th, 2009
4:08 pm - Rumor Has It She Didn't Want To Deal With The Embarrassment On January 21st

They do say cats are smarter than humans!

current mood: curious

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Thursday, December 18th, 2008
1:01 pm - A Tainted Legacy

Irony of the fall of the company Arthur Andersen is that there is a true story of the founder, Arthur Anderson in the early part of the 20th Century being told by a client to sign off on fraudulent accounts for a company that was a high status client of his, or else lose their patronage.  Andersen replied “not for all the money in America”.  Andersen stressed the importance of honesty, refusing to move one inch from his personal and professional morals.

If only the people who took over had carried on Andersen’s legacy.  Sadly greed encompassed it and we ended up with people not only okay with cooking the books, but embracing it.

Right now, things bad, not devastating, but bad.  I wonder, would things have gotten so bad if people actually acknowledged their short comings and in the spirit of poor Arthur-whose name is now tainted and synonymous with Enron and SCANDAL-followed his enforced rule of honesty and improved the reality instead of creating the false one.

current mood: thoughtful

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Wednesday, November 26th, 2008
10:53 am - After All, A Dollar Is A Dollar

Now we’re talking:


These guys weren’t even part of the reason AIG was in trouble to begin with, but they still are waiving their salary making $1 a year.  Okay, so they save on taxes, but the point is-they are doing this to send the message out.  Now another friend of mine mentioned how she knows someone at AIG who got a pay increase.  Well if it makes them feel better-the company decided to cut the excess from the top, which makes me feel a lot better about this.

Almost as good as the concept of 5 Top Notch Executives squeezed into a Ford Escort car pooling to Washington from Detroit to ask for more money.  They could car-cam this and make funds on hits to the video!

current mood: amused

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9:15 am - Tom Turkey Says WHAT?

One thing I never quite understood about Thanksgiving: smiling turkeys.  We commonly eat Turkey on Thanksgiving.  We all know this.  Why, then, would a turkey be smiling and saying “Happy Thanksgiving”?  He’s going be dead, supper actually, and then possibly a partner to many hashes and soups afterwards-so unless he’s this sort of Zen turkey who has accepted his fate and looks forward to turkey Nirvana, I’m telling you-the bird has no reason to be so darn happy.

My 6 year old gets this-she recently made the connection about the smiling Turkeys when her class made Handprint turkeys and the bulletin board they were displayed on cheerfully said “Tom Turkey Says See You On Thanksgiving Day!”.  In my mind, all I can do is imagine the turkeys scrambling off the bulletin board or holding signs that say “Vegetarianism Now”.  Anyway Gabby asked me “Mommy, we eat Turkey at Thanksgiving”, “That is correct” I answered in my motherly wisdom.  “But mommy” she said oh so earnestly “turkeys have to die before you eat them-right?”  Again, I affirm this. “How can they be happy about that?” she mused.  Indeed.

I love Turkey, don’t get me wrong-I can’t eat too much of it or else I feel like a slug, however I do enjoy it.  But I still can’t buy into the concept these guys are HAPPY about being feasted on-I am not that naïve.

current mood: contemplative

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Tuesday, November 25th, 2008
3:21 pm - Spare The Rod (Stewart), Use Barry Instead

I am laughing that some judge decided to kick it on some noisy teenagers who were charged with disruptive noise- where it hurts-their ears.  Their punishment?  Having to listen to Barry Manilow.  Now granted this is a punishment one would expect from a Zucker and Zucker film, however this is actually true.

I am patiently waiting for some bleeding heart group to cry out that this is cruel and unusual punishment.

Note: I actually admit I love some Manilow stuff, “Time In New England” is a favorite.  However I grew up with this, imagine the impact he will have on teenagers from today.  Especially if they play his 80’s Covers music.

current mood: amused

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11:39 am - Act Of Contrition?


 So why is it admitting you did something key to getting less time?  All I can hope is that there are some nice, huge dog lovers inside with him, and he gets some treatment.  Does this make me a bad person?

current mood: aggravated

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Friday, November 21st, 2008
12:39 pm - Vu Ja De!

The weird thing about reading this story, the food bank woman who came to pick up donations from our company today mentioned that things like this could happen-people get so desperate, they have to steal to support their family.


current mood: sad

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9:19 am - Well Then, No Snausages For YOU Bentley!

Why am I now thinking of the 1-800-CAR-FAXX commercial?

current mood: amused

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Thursday, November 20th, 2008
6:19 pm - The 14th Ammendment Should Say It All
The one thing that has bugged me about this past election-aside from the constant commercials, Obama being so passive and non-committed to the concept of same sex marriage-I think he should of been more supportive

Why?  Well,remember there was a time when a Black Man marrying a White Woman or vice versa was against the law-had he used that as an example-maybe that would have made people get of their moral high horse.  And yes I am comparing Homosexuality discrimination to racial discrimination based on how wrong BOTH are. Just as important to the Civil Rights Movement, as Rosa Parks refusing to sit at the back of the bus -was Loving vs Virgina winning their right in court to be called man and wife, Mildred & Richard Loving fought the system and finally were allowed after the courts decided that it was unconstitutional for them to be denied.  Had it pointed out that injustice in comparison, maybe it would have made a point. It violates the 14th amendment in the constitution:

"Marriage is one of the "basic civil rights of man," fundamental to our very existence and survival.... To deny this fundamental freedom on so unsupportable a basis as the racial classifications embodied in these statutes, classifications so directly subversive of the principle of equality at the heart of the Fourteenth Amendment, is surely to deprive all the State's citizens of liberty without due process of law. The Fourteenth Amendment requires that the freedom of choice to marry not be restricted by invidious racial discrimination. Under our Constitution, the freedom to marry, or not marry, a person of another race resides with the individual and cannot be infringed by the State."

If the state is not allowed to decide a racial marriage's validity, it shouldn't be allowed to decide a homosexual couple's marital validity. NEVER does it state a marriage is only valid between a man and a woman, it's a basic civil right of man (man being used as a term mankind).  They say it is fundamental to our existence, as in we marry and procreate-so does that mean a barren woman is not allowed to marry a man since no children will come from the marriage? No one would ever dare say that.  It's about companionship, it's about love-love should not have a bound like this.  Two responsible adults in love, committing to each other is an excellent example of  a human's capacity to love.

If it causes no harm to someone else, how could it be considered so wrong?

(as you can tell, this is a subject I am very passionate about)

current mood: hopeful

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Tuesday, November 11th, 2008
10:45 am - It’s a sad day when I agree with Oprah............

 ..........however technically I am agreeing with Jerry Seinfeld.  The topic?  Rude behavior.  Here is the article:


I am a fairly polite person, I tip well because I have an idea on how hard it is to be a waitress, as I have sat and watched my sisters do it when I would visit them at their jobs.  I worked retail both in high school and while attending NESOP, so I know the difference it makes taking two seconds to say to either your waiter/waitress or clerk behind the counter “Hey there, how are you doing today?” and MEAN what I am saying.  Sometimes people just say “fine” and other times I get this relieved look and people actually will tell you things like “surviving, it’s just one of those days”, to which I will always respond with a sympathetic nod or ear.  No one understands the value of a smile, believe it or not, merely smiling at your server or attendant does have an impact.

One time this waitress was sitting me and my kids down at a Bickfords in Dedham, this was when Orion was 2 and a half, and Rory was one and a half-it also was before their lives were disrupted and when we were this tight night trio-so they actually behaved in restaurants.  The waitress just had this look on her face like “great 2 messy kids, one adult-how much more perfect can my night get”. She looked tired, in her 40’s, and just exhausted with her line of work.  So, when she came to take our order, I realized how much my kids followed my example when Orion pipes up “How are you today?” with his huge, friendly smile.  Let’s just say I thought she was going to cry. 

When I had to run to the bathroom, she offered to stay with the children to allow me to do so.  When I came back, thanking her profusely, she asked if it was okay for the kids to have ice cream.  I explained it wasn’t in the budget for the evening.  She left to get my check, and came back with ice cream for the kids.  She had asked them what kind they liked when I ran to the bathroom. 

“On the house” she explained “I never get a customer who actually asks how I am and cares about it”.

 We went there twice a month for a year and a half (I was paid bi-monthly, so every pay day) and she was always our waitress.  And they always got free ice cream.  All because we treated our waitress like a human being, not a slave.  Are we paying for her service?  Absolutely, but the kindness we showed her, she decided to return and it was a beautiful thing.  Orion and I stopped by the Bickfords when I finished packing up my house in 2001 and we were on our way back to Norwalk.  She packed Orion ice cream to go, packed a slice of pie for Rory (who wasn’t with me) and she wished me luck dealing with my ex-husband (she pretty much knew my life story at this point and I knew hers).

This relationship was all based on a split second of my son following my example and taking a moment to ask someone how they were.  It is amazing what a random act of kindness can inspire.

I just wish there was more of that attitude these days.

current mood: thoughtful

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Wednesday, November 5th, 2008
2:26 pm - This Is Sad

Michael Crichton passed away-apparently he had Cancer but kept it quiet.

That’s sad!

current mood: sad

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Thursday, October 30th, 2008
11:21 am - I Just Wish There Were More Stories Like This……

current mood: hopeful

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Wednesday, October 29th, 2008
4:45 pm - PASS IT ON
Copy this sentence into your livejournal if you're in a heterosexual marriage*, and you don't want it "protected" by the bigots who think that gay marriage hurts it somehow.**

*I'm not in a marriage, but if these freaks have their way my unmarried heterosexual relationship could be threatened as well.

current mood: determined

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Monday, October 27th, 2008
2:15 pm - They May Be On To Something Here................

I admit-when I am stressed-it gets me the most!

current mood: curious

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Monday, October 20th, 2008
2:55 pm - So What Would Constitute SLOW Thinking In This Case?
They say “fast thinking saved her life”, I would think not sneaking into an empty, dark cemetery at 10PM in the evening would have been better thinking, but I guess I am picky!
P.S I am not saying she deserved what happened to her, rather wondering why the reporter actually claimed the victim was a “fast thinker” when her actions prior to the attack weren’t exactly what I would call smart. Just sayin’

current mood: confused

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Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
4:14 am - The Tablecloth
Here is another really cool reunion story that is also true:

current mood: happy

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Monday, October 13th, 2008
8:19 pm - Heartwalk-October 19th, 2008-I'm walking it!
Hello All!

I am doing this walk, so please donate if you can! Gabby, Orion and Aurora are also walking with me!


Everyone knows someone affected by heart disease or stroke. For those I love, I will be walking in this year’s Start! Heart Walk. I have set a personal goal to raise funds for the American Heart Association and need your help to reach my donation goal. We are raising critical dollars for heart disease and stroke research and education.

You can help me reach my goal by making a donation online. Click on the link below and you will be taken to my personal donation page where you can make a secure online credit card donation. The American Heart Association's online fundraising website has a minimum donation amount of $25.00. If you prefer to donate less, you can do so by sending a check directly to me.

Your donation will help fight our nation’s No. 1 and No. 3 killers—heart disease and stroke. You are making a difference. Thank you for your support.

Follow This Link to visit my personal web page and help me in my efforts to support American Heart Association - FDA Fairfield County, CT

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current mood: hopeful

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